Dumbass
I feel like an idiot.
Yes, I know all of the sun sensitivity risks of being on Zelboraf. Cover up, sunscreen all the time, etc. I’ve been fairly diligent, at least with sunscreen. I use a lotion with SPF 15 after I get out of the shower and then I use a 30-55 Sunscreen before I leave the house. I keep a cover-up in the car so no sun is on me directly while driving. Sounds ok, right?
Yesterday, the boys were playing outside with the neighbors. I wanted to be around, so I figured I could go sit on the deck in the shade with my book and all would be well. The gazebo cover plus the sun shade seemed to keep me completely covered, so I thought all was well.
Oh, how wrong I was.
At first I thought maybe I was getting The Rash, but as the evening went on, I realized that my redness was just red and had distinct lines. All on my left side: face, neck, arm, leg.
Last night
another view
And earlier today, I found a small blister patch on my face and my upper arm. Of course it hurts like any sunburn does, but my pride is a little achy as well.
I was warned. I was told. I guess I just didn’t believe that I would get burned in the SHADE.
Hard lesson to learn.
Dumbass.
Hey Dawn? You aren’t an expert on this yet. You were warned and you weren’t careless. You didn’t throw caution to the wind and sit outdoors in the full light of day. You didn’t dismiss the warnings and pretend like they didn’t apply to you. You were smart. You took precautions. And now you know that they weren’t enough. You’ll need to do more to protect yourself, which you’ll do.
I’m pretty sure that eventually the universe will cut you some slack and give you a break. Maybe, just maybe, you could do that for yourself a little bit? A very wise woman I know once told me that I shouldn’t ever say anything about myself that I wouldn’t say to my dearest friend. So, the dumbass bit? Give yourself a break. When you know better, you do better. Now you know.