Dawn’s courageous battle with melanoma ended peacefully and pain-free yesterday in the company of me, our two boys, and each of our mothers. She told me the night before that she had no pain, and this terrible disease took her from us not long after. I am thankful there was time for us to say all we wanted to say to each other and I think that’s helping me deal with her being gone. We have no regrets about anything, other than maybe using tanning beds so many years ago.
In the past 24 hours there has been an outpouring of love for Dawn that has oftentimes left me speechless and crying. She loved every single person she spent her days conversing with, and lived her life to the fullest as best she could. Her body never slowed her mind, and even when she was confined to a bed she continued to stay upbeat and positive. The day our oncologist gave us the grim news about a lack of any further available treatment, we hugged and cried, and then she started planning for my future without her.
I can’t believe she’s gone now. It almost feels like one of the many nights she was in the hospital while I was home with the boys, and I fear the day that my mind stops tricking me in that way. I loved her attitude and her outlook through all of this. I loved everything about her. Even in the few times she broke, she broke full-on, and gathered herself to hold her head high again. There was no point in being sad all the time, because sadness didn’t cure anything. Sometimes I wondered how she didn’t put a fist through the wall, but that just wasn’t her style.
Dawn lived to soothe everyone around her. If you needed to be picked up, she’d find a way to pick you up. If you needed someone to sit in the dumps with you, she’d climb down by your side until you were ready to come back up. Her joy came in the joy of others, and if she had to manufacture that joy, well, that was just fine by her.
I’m really going to miss her, because we were supposed to have another 30 years or so together. I hope the boys and I can find a groove and live without her. I can’t believe she’s gone.
Services are this weekend as follows:
David C. Brown Funeral Home
500 E. Huron River Drive
Belleville, MI 48111
Viewing from 2pm-3pm (family only) and 3-8pm (everyone) on Saturday, April 6th
Viewing from 11-12 followed by Memorial Service from 12-1pm on Sunday, April 7th
Luncheon to follow on Sunday, with details yet to come.
In lieu of flowers, please donate to the Melanoma Research Foundation or the boys’ college funds.
Please dress comfortably. Dawn never liked dressing up, and doesn’t want you to feel the need to, either. It’s your decision.
On Sunday, at sunset, please join us in releasing purple and blue balloons in Dawn’s memory. Feel free to do this wherever you are, or you can join us at a location to be determined.
Contact me with questions at firstname.lastname@example.org